The use of psilocybin mushrooms dates back thousands of years. The practice was quashed in the US by our puritanical foundation that clearly states that nobody can have more fun that I’m currently having, so there!
The VA is currently testing psychedelics on PTSD. I called my local VA and asked if I could be in the trials but they supply only ketamine and I turned them down. I haven’t been keeping up with the drug culture and I’ve only heard the word ketamine, never experienced it. I know it’s a party drug. I didn’t want a party drug. [See below, I’ve since dug up info on ketamine and I still don’t want it.]
Especially for Veterans
I’ve been microdosing shrooms for about 20 years. The best thing I can say about this is when I microdose shrooms, I don’t have the urge to kill myself.
Veterans at my age, I’m in my mid seventies, are constantly plagued by suicidal ideation. Mellencamp has a song that goes like this: “life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone.”
When retired, Veterans have only memories swirling around in their skulls and those can cause havoc. And the thrill of living is gone.
Living with combat PTSD is living on the edge and the urge to off yourself is always right there within reach, making faces at you. I’ve been waiting and waiting for the VA to test shrooms, and so what do I finally get? A party drug. I’ve since researched ketamine, and don’t like what I’ve discovered.
If you can get shrooms from the VA, good on you. If not, there are people out there to supply it and a few sites that will send a kit to grow them. And don’t worry, I’m assured by a judge, a friend of mine, that nobody’s going to arrest you for saving your life.
Microdosing can be spendy. Shrooms and my medical marijuana come to $300 – $600 per month. Future generations of soldiers will be getting theirs free. Marijuana keeps veterans off opiates, and psilocybin keeps vets from killing themselves.
In case you’re unaware of what combat PTSD consists of some 50 years after the combat, I will explain it to you:
Everything in your life can be perfect. The weather is cool, the sun is out, your family is all around, but in a very dark corner in the back of your mind something horrible is about to go down.
Shrooms take that away. And it gives a bit of a thrill.
So really, our government, our puritanical laws, all the restrictions that keep our veterans on the edge, well, they can all go fuck themselves. When you send our best and brightest off to fight your corporate wars you’d better fucking take care of them the rest of their lives because they’ve given everything, everything to their country, except they’ve all held onto the nightmares.
Chocolate
Cacao goes back over five thousand years, and like the Aztecs, is endemic to the southern Americas. Chocolate was first drunk bitter with a bit of spice, mainly cayenne. We’ve written quite a bit about chocolate at this site from its health benefits, to the guide to making it at home in your kitchen. And there’s more, just search on “chocolate.”
Back to the subject at hand. The Aztecs added psilocybin mushrooms to their chocolate. You can find article after article about this on the web, but that’s not our purpose here.
I had wanted to post you images of the sculpture the Aztecs left us, sculptures of the mushrooms they felt were a divine gift. There are lots of photos on the web, but they’re all copyrighted, so I had “Copilot” create us a photo using AI.
Our Recipe
First off, you can add shrooms to anything you make in your kitchen. You can melt a candy bar and add your shrooms. Our purpose here is to make a real, healthy dark chocolate, using BochaSweet as your sugar, creating a perfect chocolate bar (12 of them) with 120 squares of a daily microdose of psilocybin.
Are we clear?
Ingredients
- 1 lb baked nibs
- 6 oz BochaSweet
- 1.5 oz psilocybin mushrooms
Make your chocolate according to this guide: Making Chocolate in Your Kitchen. I should warn you, making chocolate is addictive. Your children and grandchildren will visit you often, and there are so many treats you can make for them. Today I’m making a frozen banana drizzled with milk chocolate.
Second Recipe
This is milk chocolate and it’s been tested, measured, and calculated.
A microdose of shrooms is around 300mg. This second recipe creates single squares with just around that dosage per square.
Ingredients
- 9 oz baked nibs
- 9 oz cacao butter
- 8 oz powdered milk (can use coconut milk)
- 7 oz sugar or for diabetics, BochaSweet (can add more if you like it sweeter)
Using the molds below, we calculated that each square was just under 300mg of shrooms. But that depends on how full you make the bars.
Place your dried mushrooms into your blender and powderize them. Add the shrooms last to your melanger. I actually pause the machine to add a bit because of all the fine particles flying aound, but just like you added the BochaSweet add in small scoops. Let it run at least 24 hours (test for smoothness and conformity) and I’ve decided not to waste 2 -3 hours tempering. Just make your bars. If you do decide to temper, try not to lick your stirring stick too often unless you’re planning on going to a “Dead” concert.
Using the above mold and the first recipe, we filled two of these making 120 squares of a 354mg dosage. One square is a very nice daily microdose. Four squares are enough for a divine night, and an entire bar will bring about an incredible evening. The really nice thing about an evening of divine mind alteration using shrooms is the effects last weeks, even months for some; a peacefulness and respite from sleeping and waking nightmares. Oh, and you won’t get much sleep, so turn on DisneyPlus and watch one of the Fantasias.
Your host here has been exploring mind-altering experiences since Vietnam. I found mescaline/peyote to be less harsh than LSD, and shrooms to be much kinder, and then there’s meditation and the moving meditation of Tai Chi and Qigong. The thing is, we know a lot more about meditation than mind-altering drugs because one of them is against the law, and was only thoroughly tested by our government. Very secret.
Look around. The world is in chaos, our politics are divisive, and most of the time we walk around with an overwhelming urge to punch someone in the nose.
Studies show (the ones I’ve found, and I’m not going to reference them because anyone can find them, even you, and I’m old and tired and I just want to play frisbee with my little rescue, Bumbus today. I’m sure you all know how to Google) . . . fuck it. Let me put it this way.
We are all trapped. We are defined by what we do, who we know, what we know, how we know and how we do. Our definition is our box. And we know we have that box because when we have lost a job we’ve lost our definition, our identity. That period in which we ‘re out job hunting is stressful just because of the anxiety of having no definition; living in limbo.
And then we find a job, get married, have kids, a gerbil, and trips to DisneyWorld.
And yet, that is a trap. We are bound up in our identity and our routines and kept separate from others.
Shrooms can help break those bonds. Shrooms can retrain and rebalance the activity of our egos, expanding our notion of self, our notion of worth, and teach us to dance in greater harmony with our environment.
“Awe may be a critically important emotional experience during psychedelic treatment in generating compassion, empathy, and overall well-being.” Dr. Eve Ekman and Gabrielle Agin-Liebes
Shrooms help us let go; let go of patterns, self-criticism, judgment, and this leads to less judgment of others and an increased acceptance.
Our world needs more compassion, empathy, and altruism. Those three words kept coming up in the studies I read. In our politics we keep bashing the “other side” over their heads with our “strongly worded” memes, when what we all could really use is a session on shrooms. Besides, all veterans took an oath to protect and defend the Constitution, and we are all brothers and sisters.
The dinosaurs roamed the earth for some 200 million years. At the rate we’re going, with our “hypermagical ultraomnipotence,” we’ll be lucky to do one tenth of that.
Cooperation is what got us here, and it’s cooperation that will keep us here. So, enjoy your shrooms and be sure to share them with your more conservative and uptight friends and hopefully we will all learn to get along.
For Your Information – Marijuana
If you use this last recipe for Medical Marijuana Edibles, each square comes out to around 300mg of THC when using “dabs.” Again, we’re averaging because your dabs were probably not made in a Harvard laboratory.
